What if you just absolutely knew without a shadow of a doubt what it is that you were called to do? What if you had this detailed plan in your head of how things were going to go and who would be involved and how absolutely wonderful it was going to be? Then you decide to surrender it all to the Lord and He blows it all up, flips it upside down, moves people and places around and you’re smack in the middle watching as if in the eye of a tornado as everything starts to swirl around you at a dizzying rate and you have ZERO control! Can you relate even a little?
I thought that I’d graduate college, have a very successful event planning company and then I prayed, “Lord, use me!” Well, I had this wedding that I was planning and then before I knew it, I lost all control of that wedding and that was the end of my event planning company. Ironically, at this time I really began to hear God as if He was standing right next to me, like loud and clear to the point that I thought the sleep deprivation I’d experienced from taking care of a little had taken its toll. Little did I know that this would be the beginning of God answering my prayer of Him using me.
I lost jobs, embarrassing interviews, arguments with my husband, no money, struggles that happened in the past 8 years and it was all because I prayed for God to use me! He was directing me and I was fighting Him!
Here’s the thing, when we ask God to use us, this means that we have given Him sole control. He reminded me one day that, daughter, you don’t get to choose your assignment. Your obedience is what I need. We don’t get to choose who, what, when, where or how. We must obey. The train wreck happens when we try to work God’s plans into ours instead of the other way around. God takes our prayers quite seriously and He honors them. So, be careful what you pray for!
On the journey to Him “using” us, He works on, in then through us. He reaches down to clean us up and clean us out. He removes the things in us that would taint His purpose for us. He removes the things in our hearts that are not of Him and this can be quite painful! He also moves at His own pace and how many of you know that His timing is NOTHING like our timing!!?? But even in this godly surgery, He doesn’t let any of the pain go to waste, He uses it all, even the things we think are so minute and unimportant.
What He’s doing during this surgery is healing us in the process of using us. Sometimes this surgical healing requires Him to remove us from certain people and situations, environments, anything that would hinder His work in us and through us. He takes great care in healing us because He doesn’t want us to spread toxic pain to others and He certainly doesn’t want us to hold on to it. If we want God to use us, we must first go through a healing process. Healing from things and people who hurt us, the pain that left a tarlike residue. We can’t move forward if we don’t allow Him to perform the surgery on our hearts and in our minds. So if you feel as if you’re stalled, then perhaps this is the reason why?
Are there some areas that you won’t talk about, can’t talk about without crying? Is there a person in your life (friend, relative, male or female) that you know isn’t good for you, or you feel that God has warned you about but because you don’t see anything wrong, you stay because you don’t know how to leave? Do you wonder if you’re stalled because God doesn’t love you because of the things you’ve done in your past or you feel that you’re too dirty to love? This is why I’m offering the class HEALED I know that I’m not the only one who’s had these feelings and I am more than willing to share how the Lord has helped me.
If you’ve prayed for God to use you and you’re wondering why you’re stuck, then ask Him, what’s holding you back and He’ll show you. If you need help in this process then perhaps HEALED is for you!
Be blessed & encouraged,