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God of the Storm

holding onSometimes things happen to us in our lives that are painful, like gut wrenching pain.  The first question we ask is why. Why did this have to happen to me? Why now? It never makes sense in the midst of it.  It just hurts. No one can offer any solace; although they mean well, their words don’t seem to take the pain away.  Somehow in the midst of all this pain you find that you get through the day and wake up the next morning realizing somehow you made it through.  What we don’t realize is that in the pain, there’s something bigger and greater going on that’s being orchestrated by Someone who’s bigger and greater than the pain we feel. When my mom died a month after I had my first daughter, my heart was crushed! My mom had only seen her granddaughter once before she died! Just imagine; after giving birth, via C-section, your mom pass and you are left with weird hormonal feelings, soreness, swollen breasts, a new baby and new husband with no guidance what so ever! I was angry, hurt and very disappointed! Many thoughts and questions consumed my mind. Why did she have to die after my baby was born? Why now Lord? I don’t know what I’m doing!  I need my mom! My baby girl (either of them, because now I have two daughters) would never know her grandmother! Who would I call when I had questions without my mom here? Who would I talk to about all I was going through on this new journey I’d embarked on?  Well, when I asked the Lord why, He heard my cry and gave me an answer as to why.  Now, keep in mind He didn’t have to tell me anything. He is God, but He is also love and He is close to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18).   As painful as it was, I understood why and He gave me comfort in His answer.  In spite of the loss of my mom, I became a great mother and wife and God gave me spiritual moms to provide guidance and comfort along the way. As a result of my mom’s death, our family became closer and it deepened my relationship with my sister.  I also feel that my mom’s death made me appreciate life more, realizing it is short and precious. So, I have to make the most of every moment I have with my daughters.

It is important to realize that although we go through pain, God sees all and He will help us through it.  After all, He did say that He would never leave us or forsake us (Hebrews 13:5).  In this pain, I have found strength that I didn’t know I had and I have come to know God more intimately.  He became my mother and my father.  He has become all that I need and will ever need on this life journey.  Here are some pearls of wisdom I have learned that I want to share with you in hopes it will give you peace in the middle of your storm (pain).

  1. God, even though He loves us beyond words, is more interested in building our character than He is in our comfort. It doesn’t feel good and it all seems bad but, we know that in all things God works things out for the good of those who love Him, who are the called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).
  2. God is purposeful.  He uses every tear, every joy, every heartache and pain to mold and shape us into who He created us to be. He is the potter; we are the clay (Isaiah 64:8).
  3. What we go through, whether good or bad, it’s for God’s glory, our good and to help someone else along the way. We shouldn’t be afraid to share our story with others especially if you’re getting the nudge from the Lord to do so.  God has a great way of orchestrating divine connections.  You never know, your testimony may be just what the other person needed to lead them to God.  We need each other and God didn’t mean for us to go through life alone.  (John 13:34-35)
  4. What we go through will either cause us to run to God or run away from Him, the choice is ours. You will never be alone if you run to Him!
  5. He’s waiting to love on us and strengthen us through our pain.
  6. Most importantly, I’ve learned that through pain, comes purpose! Through the pain and consequences of premarital sex, came my purpose/ministry, Savin’ it for Hubby.  By me sharing my story, I help others see that they are not alone, God still loves them and wants them, and He has taken away all shame and guilt and most of all He is the Great Restorer!

I don’t know what painful situation you’re in right now but God does and will be with you through it all if you ask Him too.  If you’re going through a divorce, He still loves you and will take care of you. If you have lost someone dear to you, He will be there to wipe every tear away. (Isaiah 25:8) Nothing is too hard for God to handle! (Jeremiah 32:17). So, release your pain, trust Him and let Him give you rest.

Be blessed & encouraged,

Shannon


Pain as a Weapon

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It’s often said “no pain, no gain” and in some cases this seems to be true. We humans don’t like pain, nor do we enjoy facing painful situations, circumstances or consequences. We don’t want anything taking away our comfort! But, God showed me an interesting way to view pain.  You’ve heard that from pain comes purpose, right? Well God showed me that pain can be a weapon as well. The hurts, mistakes, hang-ups, painful situations and consequences are tools of our enemy satan. He set them up to steal from us, kill us and destroy us.  That’s his mission, his job (John 10:10).  But God! Our Father knew in advance that these situations would happen so He turns these ill fated tools of the enemy into purpose (Romans 8:28)! Our purpose is God’s Kingdom purpose, and God uses this “painful” purpose to defeat satan! The pain in our lives becomes a weapon in the hands of God! God uses this weapon, created by the enemy, to beat him at his own game! Not only that, the pain that’s inflicted, the purpose that is given, only strengthens God’s Kingdom. God’s turning our pain into purpose is a weapon used against the kingdom of darkness. Talking about a revelation! Looking back, I’ve found this to be true in my own life. Savin’ it for Hubby was birthed from painful situations, circumstances and consequences from my own life and God is definitely using Savin’ it for Hubby to defeat the kingdom of darkness by revealing His truth about sex! This is my purpose and I love that I am being used by God to defeat the enemy!  To get to this point, I had to face the things that I’d done and that had been done to me that were against God, against His Word and His will for my life. I had to face the pain, allowing God to walk me through and receive His healing.  This step must take place or else the enemy still has the power to use these things against you.

Letting God heal and strengthen you turns you into a great threat to the enemy. He knows that God can turn you into someone powerful which is why he tries his best to bring condemnation so that you will run from God instead of running to Him.

No matter what you’ve done or what’s been done to you, nothing can keep you from God but you! He’s always waiting for us with open arms to heal and love on us. We have to remember what God’s purpose is for us and also what the enemy’s purpose is for us too.  You have to know your enemy and his tactics in order to defeat him!

Don’t be afraid to face pain, because with God, you’re never facing it alone. Facing it and dealing with it brings you healing and victory and makes you a mighty weapon for God!

Be blessed & encouraged,

Shannon


An Excerpt….

Hi! I’m in the process of publishing my first book, y’all pray for me! As I’m in the process of publishing the first one, I’ve started on the second one, which is fiction mixed with a little life truth, and thought I’d share a little teaser 😉

…My God what have I done?! My life is a mess! My heart is a mess! The pain is unbearable. I can barely breathe! It hurts to breathe! I want to cry but the tears won’t come. How did this happen? When did this happen? Why did this happen? To me! Haven’t I gone through enough? The pain of seeing my mom throw her life away and kill herself with drugs and alcohol and now a painful, hurtful marriage! The entire marriage has been painful! God, my soul hurts, it aches. Words can’t describe the hurt and pain and disappointment, anger, frustration and hopelesness.

With you there’s always hope, right? I feel sick to my stomach with grief. Who am I? What do I do now? God I have begged you, pleaded, cried, prayed that you would take these feelings away. But you haven’t. Why have me continue to love someone I can never have and worst yet, he still loves me! He’s honored that I still love him, but my husband could care less about me! All he does is tear me down to nothing! He never misses a chance to remind me of my mistakes! As if he’s perfect and has never done anything wrong! My God will this pain ever stop?! What do I do now God? I don’t want to fail you. I don’t want to go to hell, I want to please you but how when I know you know what’s in my heart. Am I gonna go to hell for feeling this way? If only I’d truly known you sooner, if I ‘d been stronger, if I’d fought, fought for Gavin’s love. I told Evan it was over, it hurts too bad to love him, it’s painful loving him. He doesn’t know how to love me. He’s all about himself. There’s no we, just him. His wants, his needs.

God, I don’t know how much more of this emptiness I can take! How do I get out of this? I trust you Lord, now what do you want me to do? First Peter 3 is too hard and too painful to do. I don’t even know if I still want to be married or not. I just want this to be over. I still can’t breathe, how can I rest and sleep feeling like this? I don’t, I can’t talk to him, I don’t know what to say. Too much pain and he just doesn’t get it. He just can’t seem to understand me.  Sometimes I wish I could press the reset button but then I wouldn’t have my children. I want to cry, maybe the pain will stop but I don’t want to wake the kids, the tears won’t come anyway. 

This really is my life. This is a bunch of BS! I keep hoping that I’ll wake up from a bad dream. Who knew wanting and getting love and affection from your husband would be so hard! Holy Spirit and Jesus I hope you’re truly interceding for me now because I no longer know what to pray or ask for except for this pain to stop.

Now that I look back, the signs were all there, the warnings, the words of wisdom; I didn’t listen. Even the fights before the engagement, the sense of relief during our temporary break-up. Nope, I listened to Evan. “Have faith in me” he said. I was so stupid! Why in the world did I think that marriage would change things? Maybe because I knew nothing about marriage to begin with. I should have known something was wrong because I thought of Gavin on the day of our wedding. Who thinks of another man on her wedding day? Even our wedding night was awkward. The signs were all there yet I ignored them. And now I’m in the biggest mess of my life! Lord, please save me from myself….

So, what’cha think? Would you keep reading? This is my first time attempting fiction so be gentle :-). I shall continue writing! Until next time…

Be blessed & encouraged,

Shannon


God of the Storm

Sometimes things happen to us in our lives that are painful, like gut wrenching pain.  The first question we ask is why. Why did this have to happen to me? Why now? It never makes sense in the midst of it.  It just hurts. No one can offer any solace; although they mean well, their words don’t seem to take the pain away.  Somehow in the midst of all this pain you find that you get through the day and wake up the next morning realizing somehow you made it through.  What we don’t realize is that in the pain, there’s something bigger and greater going on that’s being orchestrated by Someone who’s bigger and greater than the pain we feel. When my mom died a month after I had my first daughter, my heart was crushed! My mom had only seen her granddaughter once before she died! Just imagine; after giving birth, via C-section, your mom pass and you are left with weird hormonal feelings, soreness, swollen breasts, a new baby and new husband with no guidance what so ever! I was angry, hurt and very disappointed! Many thoughts and questions consumed my mind. Why did she have to die after my baby was born? Why now Lord? I don’t know what I’m doing!  I need my mom! My baby girl (either of them, because now I have two daughters) would never know her grandmother! Who would I call when I had questions without my mom here? Who would I talk to about all I was going through on this new journey I’d embarked on?  Well, when I asked the Lord why, He heard my cry and gave me an answer as to why.  Now, keep in mind He didn’t have to tell me anything. He is God, but He is also love and He is close to the broken-hearted (Psalm 34:18).   As painful as it was, I understood why and He gave me comfort in His answer.  In spite of the loss of my mom, I became a great mother and wife and God gave me spiritual moms to provide guidance and comfort along the way. As a result of my mom’s death, our family became closer and it deepened my relationship with my sister.  I also feel that my mom’s death made me appreciate life more, realizing it is short and precious. So, I have to make the most of every moment I have with my daughters.

It is important to realize that although we go through pain, God sees all and He will help us through it.  After all, He did say that He would never leave us or forsake us (Hebrews 13:5).  In this pain, I have found strength that I didn’t know I had and I have come to know God more intimately.  He became my mother and my father.  He has become all that I need and will ever need on this life journey.  Here are some pearls of wisdom I have learned that I want to share with you in hopes it will give you peace in the middle of your storm (pain).

  1. God, even though He loves us beyond words, is more interested in building our character than He is in our comfort. It doesn’t feel good and it all seems bad but, we know that in all things God works things out for the good of those who love His, who are the called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).
  2. God is purposeful.  He uses every tear, every joy, every heartache and pain to mold and shape us into what He created us to be. He is the potter; we are the clay (Isaiah 64:8).
  3. What we go through, whether good or bad, it’s for God’s glory and to help someone else along the way. We shouldn’t be afraid to share our story with others especially if you’re getting the nudge from the Lord to do so.  God has a great way of orchestrating divine connections.  You never know, your testimony may be just what the other person needed to lead them to God.  We need each other and God didn’t mean for us to go through life alone.  (John 13:34-35)
  4. What we go through will either cause us to run to God or run away from Him, the choice is ours. You will never be alone if you run to Him!
  5. He’s waiting to love on us and strengthen us through our pain.
  6. Most importantly, I’ve learned that through pain, comes purpose! Through the pain and consequences of premarital sex, came my purpose/ministry, Savin’ it for Hubby.  By me sharing my story, I help others see that they are not alone, God still loves them and wants them, and He has taken away all shame and guilt and most of all He is the Great Restorer!

I don’t know what painful situation you’re in right now but God does and will be with you through it all if you ask Him too.  If you’re going through a divorce, He still loves you and will take care of you. If you have lost someone dear to you, He will be there to wipe every tear away. (Isaiah 25:8) Nothing is too hard for God to handle! (Jeremiah 32:17). So, release your pain, trust Him and let Him give you rest.

Be blessed & encouraged,

Shannon


Boundaries

Are you one of those people who hear the word “Bible” and roll your eyes, cringe or run for the hills? LOL! I know, I so used to be the same way! That is until I found out what the Bible really is all about.  Before I gave my life to Christ, I ran.  I ran far away.  I didn’t want to hear about God, certainly didn’t know who Jesus was and I didn’t want to hear anything about ….sin.  I didn’t realize then that I was running from the One who could rescue me from all that I was battling with.

I thought that by running from God and the Bible, that I was keeping my freedom and didn’t have to worry about being restricted and constricted. I always thought the Bible was full of words telling me what not to do so that I couldn’t have fun and live my life the way I wanted to.  I was living life without boundaries.  I did whatever I wanted, when I wanted, how I wanted and with whomever I chose to do it with!

It took me a long time to learn that the Bible was filled with pages of life-giving words, not life restricting and constricting words.  God’s word sets boundaries and believe it or not, we certainly do need boundaries! Without the word of God my life was out-of-bounds and all that did was allow me to heap loads of pain and heartache on myself! I invited this pain! Not knowing that the whole time I was running from God, He was chasing me with His love and all He wanted to do was protect me and I wouldn’t let Him.

God wants to protect us, that’s one of the reasons we have the Bible.  Look at life without the Bible.  Not pretty.  There’s so much ick, pain, and evil, all because we’d rather do things our own way.  We think we know what’s best when really, we don’t.  God has a huge advantage over us, He sees and knows the future, He knows what’s coming and not only that, He created us so He knows all about us (See Psalm 139).  The Word of God is alive and well and each time we read it, no matter if we’ve read the same verse several times before, we find exactly what we need for the season that we’re in. He knows exactly what we need right when we need it!

We have the wrong view of boundaries.  God’s boundaries are meant to protect and direct us.  If we follow Him, we can have the most amazing life which is found in Him (Jeremiah 29:11).  I mean, why not follow Him? He is the CREATOR of all things so why not go to the ONE who can give us all things? We don’t have to work for it, just receive, all because we’ve given our life over to Him.  He loves us beyond measure! Adam & Eve stepped out of the boundaries God set for them and look what happened? I would say having boundaries set by the Almighty is a pretty awesome idea! 🙂 Thank you God for your boundaries!

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Be blessed & encouraged,

Shannon


Change

We all go through changes in our lives, some good, some bad.  Some much needed and some unexpected.  Change can bring us such great joy or it can feel as if our lives are falling apart, as if your heart is being ripped from your chest! Whether we like it or not, change is inevitable.

Over the past 3 years, my life has changed dramatically! I quit my job in 2010 because God said that it was time to go but I thought it was just to leave that particular job and go to another, but not so! Little did I know God had something else in store for me, something huge and beyond me! Something that would require my whole life to be changed, shaken and reformed! I’m still in preparation and right now the it doesn’t feel good at all!!! BUT, I know who’s in control and I know that He has me. If you’re a child of God and you have said “Lord, I surrender my life to you” then hold on for the ride of your life!

Jesus came to die for our sins, when we surrender our lives to Him, we die to our sins.  That death to our sins is not always easy but it’s necessary for our lives. The change can be painful at times but in the end it’s so good for us, it’s life for us.  But because we still have flesh, we die kicking and screaming because we don’t want to change because change doesn’t always feel good. We want what feels good, right?! God is more concerned about the development of our character and changing our hearts than our comfort.  He said He would never leave nor forsake us, but He never said that this journey would be easy.

We all have things about us that we need to change or would like to change, but it’s a great relief to know that we don’t have to go through the process of change alone.  God is patient and gentle with us, gently nudging us in the way we should go, shoot I know sometimes He’s had to drag me! But out of His great love, He changes us, gently and lovingly.  So if you’re in some stuff and you know you shouldn’t be or have somethings about you that you want to change, don’t worry about having to do it all by yourself because you can’t, that’s why Jesus died for us.  We are incapable, without Jesus.  He will help you! All you have to do is ask and obey! He didn’t come to condemn but to save and love us.  Talk to Him about the things you want to change, need to change but just can’t seem to do and trust Him to help you because He will, He’s just waiting on the invitation!

Be blessed & encouraged,

Shannon


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