Sometimes things happen to us in our lives that are painful, like gut wrenching pain. The first question we ask is why. Why did this have to happen to me? Why now? It never makes sense in the midst of it. It just hurts. No one can offer any solace; although they mean well, their words don’t seem to take the pain away. Somehow in the midst of all this pain you find that you get through the day and wake up the next morning realizing somehow you made it through. What we don’t realize is that in the pain, there’s something bigger and greater going on that’s being orchestrated by Someone who’s bigger and greater than the pain we feel. When my mom died a month after I had my first daughter, my heart was crushed! My mom had only seen her granddaughter once before she died! Just imagine; after giving birth, via C-section, your mom pass and you are left with weird hormonal feelings, soreness, swollen breasts, a new baby and new husband with no guidance what so ever! I was angry, hurt and very disappointed! Many thoughts and questions consumed my mind. Why did she have to die after my baby was born? Why now Lord? I don’t know what I’m doing! I need my mom! My baby girl (either of them, because now I have two daughters) would never know her grandmother! Who would I call when I had questions without my mom here? Who would I talk to about all I was going through on this new journey I’d embarked on? Well, when I asked the Lord why, He heard my cry and gave me an answer as to why. Now, keep in mind He didn’t have to tell me anything. He is God, but He is also love and He is close to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). As painful as it was, I understood why and He gave me comfort in His answer. In spite of the loss of my mom, I became a great mother and wife and God gave me spiritual moms to provide guidance and comfort along the way. As a result of my mom’s death, our family became closer and it deepened my relationship with my sister. I also feel that my mom’s death made me appreciate life more, realizing it is short and precious. So, I have to make the most of every moment I have with my daughters.
It is important to realize that although we go through pain, God sees all and He will help us through it. After all, He did say that He would never leave us or forsake us (Hebrews 13:5). In this pain, I have found strength that I didn’t know I had and I have come to know God more intimately. He became my mother and my father. He has become all that I need and will ever need on this life journey. Here are some pearls of wisdom I have learned that I want to share with you in hopes it will give you peace in the middle of your storm (pain).
I don’t know what painful situation you’re in right now but God does and will be with you through it all if you ask Him too. If you’re going through a divorce, He still loves you and will take care of you. If you have lost someone dear to you, He will be there to wipe every tear away. (Isaiah 25:8) Nothing is too hard for God to handle! (Jeremiah 32:17). So, release your pain, trust Him and let Him give you rest.
Be blessed & encouraged,
Be blessed & encouraged,
So, Savin’ it for Hubby has been going for a few years now and just recently, I’ve been blessed to come from behind the blog to speak in person. I’ve found that I truly enjoy it!!! Well, there’s this awesome conference coming up, She Speaks Conference, and it’s for Christian speakers, writers and leaders and I want to go so very badly. Ladies travel from all over to attend this conference given by Proverbs 31 Ministries.
The content and classes given by this conference will help me in further developing my skills as well as growing Savin’ it for Hubby! With the state of the world that we’re in now, truth needs to go forth immediately!
This conference, as awesome as it may be, is more than our single family income can handle right now, so I’ve started a Go Fund Me campaign. To cover conference fees and materials, lodging, and travel expenses, in all I will need $2000. So far at my last check $630 has been raised. Won’t you consider helping a “Mom on a Mission”? I’ve posted my Go Fund Me link below. Any amount helps and prayers are greatly appreciated. Also, sharing is caring!! My deadline is February 29th as this conference always fills fast and they usually have an extensive wait list.
God bless you all and thank you in advance!!!!
Be blessed & encouraged,
It’s often said “no pain, no gain” and in some cases this seems to be true. We humans don’t like pain, nor do we enjoy facing painful situations, circumstances or consequences. We don’t want anything taking away our comfort! But, God showed me an interesting way to view pain. You’ve heard that from pain comes purpose, right? Well God showed me that pain can be a weapon as well. The hurts, mistakes, hang-ups, painful situations and consequences are tools of our enemy satan. He set them up to steal from us, kill us and destroy us. That’s his mission, his job (John 10:10). But God! Our Father knew in advance that these situations would happen so He turns these ill fated tools of the enemy into purpose (Romans 8:28)! Our purpose is God’s Kingdom purpose, and God uses this “painful” purpose to defeat satan! The pain in our lives becomes a weapon in the hands of God! God uses this weapon, created by the enemy, to beat him at his own game! Not only that, the pain that’s inflicted, the purpose that is given, only strengthens God’s Kingdom. God’s turning our pain into purpose is a weapon used against the kingdom of darkness. Talking about a revelation! Looking back, I’ve found this to be true in my own life. Savin’ it for Hubby was birthed from painful situations, circumstances and consequences from my own life and God is definitely using Savin’ it for Hubby to defeat the kingdom of darkness by revealing His truth about sex! This is my purpose and I love that I am being used by God to defeat the enemy! To get to this point, I had to face the things that I’d done and that had been done to me that were against God, against His Word and His will for my life. I had to face the pain, allowing God to walk me through and receive His healing. This step must take place or else the enemy still has the power to use these things against you.
Letting God heal and strengthen you turns you into a great threat to the enemy. He knows that God can turn you into someone powerful which is why he tries his best to bring condemnation so that you will run from God instead of running to Him.
No matter what you’ve done or what’s been done to you, nothing can keep you from God but you! He’s always waiting for us with open arms to heal and love on us. We have to remember what God’s purpose is for us and also what the enemy’s purpose is for us too. You have to know your enemy and his tactics in order to defeat him!
Don’t be afraid to face pain, because with God, you’re never facing it alone. Facing it and dealing with it brings you healing and victory and makes you a mighty weapon for God!
Be blessed & encouraged,
On this day, one year ago I had the scare of my life! I’d just found out a week before that we were expecting and I’d gone for my check up and all was well. My hubby and I couldn’t believe we were expecting again and both were still in shock. Well, he was, I kinda knew it was supposed to happen, somewhat….
Three years ago, we purchased our first home and as we were moving in and unpacking, I heard the Lord say that we would have a third child. We have two daughters, Maya now 10 and Ava now 7, I said, ok Lord, how will we fit another kid in this house, as we were moving into a townhouse. He said that the new baby would fit in our room, which was a pretty nice sized master. I remember telling God, ok, but You will have to speak to hubby on that. Hubbs was not hearing having a third kid, he was just fine with our two girls. Well, fast forward three years to the summer of 2014. I can’t remember where I was or what I was doing but I heard the Spirit say, ” You’re going to have a son named Caleb”. I in turn questioned Him of course and asked, “Ok, Lord, to whom should I relay this message?” because surely it wasn’t meant for me. Hubby made it very clear that we were done having kids. Well, maybe a month or so earlier, I’d gone to hubby again and said that I wanted to try for a boy and of course he said no, so I’d let the matter go, made up in my mind that we were done and made peace with it. After all, I couldn’t force my hubby, so I let it go and put my focus into ministry and making great strides in losing weight and toning my body. I was doing a darn good job may I add! Anyway, back to my story. So, I hear that I”m going to have a son named Caleb and that was during the summer. Well months passed and nothing. I began to question what I’d heard and wrote it off as being a little miffed that I’d wanted a son and hubbs said no but I just couldn’t shake the desire for a son. Everywhere I went I saw little boys playing and cute little baby boys!
Fast forward to October 2014. I was preparing for another session of the purity program that I coordinate and my director and I were out shopping and I felt horrible! Didn’t think nothing of it. She convinced me to buy a pregnancy test and I said fine, ok, whatever. I woke up at 4:37am to go to the bathroom and I figured I may as well take the test get it over with so I could mark it off my list as to why I was feeling so bad. I’m sitting waiting for the test results and I look down on the floor where the test was and the lines were hot pink!! I almost fell off the toilet seat!! I hurry to wake up Hubbs to show him and he was surprisingly calm! I just looked at him as if he was crazy because I was freaking out! I’d made up my mind that I was fine without a third kid! My muscles were defined and my belly was deflating, I was down to my goal size 10!
Called the Dr. the next day and via their calculations, I was 6 weeks pregnant! The following week, I go in for my check up and as I said all was well. A week later, my purity classes begin and I’m at church prepping with my director and we’re chatting. (Hope you’re not sensitive, beware of what’s next) While we’re chatting a get the sensation that feels as if I’m urinating on myself. So I rush to the bathroom and get to the stall, I pull my pants down only to see blood, and lots of it! Then, there was a final gush of blood and fluids and I began to scream and cry out for my director. She comes running and I just start crying and screaming that my baby is gone, my baby is gone!! I remember looking at a clot that was left in my underwear and thinking, this is my baby. I remember telling God, you know, I was fine without the third kid, You didn’t have to do this to me! After I calmed down a little I call my husband and he comes to pick me up and we go to the emergency room. I was a mess, I was so hurt but just wanted the whole ordeal to be over. The wait was grueling, I was given IV, and an unusually long ultrasound. During the ultrasound all I could think was why is she taking so long to find something that isn’t there?
Once the doctors and nurses were done invading my privacy, Hubby and I sat and waited in silence. The Dr came in and asked if the ultrasound tech had told us anything, and we answered no. He then says, well, the baby is still alive and the heartbeat is strong!! Hubbs and I were looking at him as if he had two heads! I was like, what in the world was that gush I felt and all the blood?! Well, turns out I had experienced something called a subchorionic hematoma. This is when there’s extra blood and tissue that your body doesn’t absorb and what isn’t absorbed, is expelled during pregnancy. He told us that although the baby seemed fine, but the placenta was starting to detach and there was still a 50/50 chance of miscarriage. The only thing I could do was go home and try to rest. We get home and I’m a nervous wreck! Every time I went to the bathroom was so scary because I was just waiting for something else to happen and every time I saw even a hint of blood I would cry. This all happened over a weekend and on Monday I went to see my Dr. She did and ultrasound and again the baby was there, all was fine and heartbeat was strong. I asked about the placenta pulling away and she said, “whatever happened, it’s healed now”. I just looked at her and said to myself, Lord, really, what are you up to?! So at this time all we knew was that we were having a baby. Where did this Caleb come from Lord? Well, when you’re over the age of 35, they offer genetic testing and you have the chance to find out early the sex of your child. On Christmas eve, we found out that we were having a boy, this indeed was our son Caleb. I could only laugh! Only God, only God!! My husband just looked at me as if I had two heads lol!
Now, one year later, our son Caleb is almost 5 months old and he is the happiest, cutest baby boy ever! We all are so in love!!
I share this story with you, because I want you to know that no matter how things look, no matter what the circumstances look like or point to, if GOD said it, it will come to pass!!! We just have to stand in faith and trust HIM!!! We have to keep our eyes on Him and focus only on what He has said and not all that we hear going on around us! God said that I would have a son named Caleb and in spite of what I saw in the bathroom that night, in spite of what the Dr told us, our baby boy is here, alive and well and keeping us up at night lol!
Our God is faithful and if He said that you will have something, then believe it and watch Him bring it all to pass!!
Be blessed & encouraged,